Thursday, April 23, 2009
I'm going to rant, exit if you don't want to hear about it. :)
Nationals are coming, coming real soon. Plus all the heavy workload the teachers are piling up on us, it's really starting to show. I might not show on the outside, but inside I do feel tired. With the upcoming lecture tests, chemistryAA plus the tremedous amount of homework piling, I really start to feel the pressure. It doesn't help when I got back most of my test nd find that I've been doing REAL badly. I'm not a smart kid, really I'm not. Why can't I find the time nd put in the extra effort to do well. I just don't feel that motivated. Plus with the upcoming nationals, I'm really worried. I start to feel this hostility among some teammates of mine towards me. Maybe it's just me hallucinating, maybe it's the truth but how am I supposed to know? I can only hope for the best. Somemore with the effing PI really wasted my time for these two days. I feel so drained yet I have to keep going like a car that never stops. I need to buck up! Nd find some energy to study. No more home studying, cause it doesn't work. AT ALL.
I hope my wrist nd knee don't buck out. I can't afford it now.
Nationals are coming, coming real soon. Plus all the heavy workload the teachers are piling up on us, it's really starting to show. I might not show on the outside, but inside I do feel tired. With the upcoming lecture tests, chemistryAA plus the tremedous amount of homework piling, I really start to feel the pressure. It doesn't help when I got back most of my test nd find that I've been doing REAL badly. I'm not a smart kid, really I'm not. Why can't I find the time nd put in the extra effort to do well. I just don't feel that motivated. Plus with the upcoming nationals, I'm really worried. I start to feel this hostility among some teammates of mine towards me. Maybe it's just me hallucinating, maybe it's the truth but how am I supposed to know? I can only hope for the best. Somemore with the effing PI really wasted my time for these two days. I feel so drained yet I have to keep going like a car that never stops. I need to buck up! Nd find some energy to study. No more home studying, cause it doesn't work. AT ALL.
I hope my wrist nd knee don't buck out. I can't afford it now.
what we could have been, Thursday, April 23, 2009.
